In a word, knackered. While I had an enjoyable Easter holiday with family and friends in Wales, it wasn’t as relaxing as one would imagine. There were the visits and the catching up, something I remember dreading as a child when at family reunions I was forced to rub elbows with people little better than strangers despite the blood ties. Nowadays, I look forward to such social visits, the swapping of stories and musings, to the good natured teasing, to watching the delight on people’s faces as they coo at Dylan and jump at the chance to hold him. Which of course is extremely exciting for the little one, and his head swivels from side to side, eyes darting as he tries to take in his surroundings before they disappear. In his enthusiasm, he winds himself tighter than an 8 day clock, and quickly reaches the point of saturation; and thus, crankiness combined with strange surroundings mean a restless night’s sleep – for everyone.
Dave and I have agreed to rotate lying in days. Unfortunately, once I reach a certain point of wakefulness, I cannot go back to sleep. (It irritates me something chronic that Dave doesn’t suffer the same and is capable of easily dropping back off for another hour or so.) On weekdays, I’m up by 6:30, out the door at 7:30 and at the office just after 8. Because of construction on one of the main (ie busiest) roads in the city, the bus ride home take twice as long. When I walk through the door, I’m anxious to hold my little boy, to play with him and figure out how to make him laugh again. But he’s fast approaching saturation point, and by 8pm he’s having his last bottle and being put to bed. I then come down for dinner and a flurry of essential chores before my energy takes a nosedive, and I crash land on the couch.
And when I do eventually drag myself up to bed, it is with the knowledge that I will be awoken some time between 1 and 5am by a fretful baby. Even though we agreed Dave would handle these nocturnal adventures on the weekdays, I’m still wakeful until Dylan is settled once again.
So I suppose it’s no wonder I’m having trouble typing this post, that my vision is blurring, and mental coherency is a foreign concept. I think it’s time to just give it up and crawl gratefully into the blissful wonder that is a comfy bed.
G’nite all!